Guess who haven't been feeling depressed at all today? I have no idea what caused this remarkable turn-around. Or, well, actually I might have an idea. After reading the title and the first two sentences, you might think I'm surprised that I'm feeling okay again. The truth is, I'm surprised of how utterly stupid and brainless I'm capable of being.

I think I'm falling for my one of my ex's best friends.

That's not the stupid part, though. Here goes: This one isn't even single. Well, she is, kind of. Her rather long relationship apparently turned to crap last saturday, not long before she came to the party I was at. Ironically, it was during that night's drinking binge I realized how incredibly cute she is. And nice too - as she reminded me today, she was the only one at the party who actually came out and checked up on me every now and then while I was almost lying in a pool of my own vomit. Naaaw.

No wonder I've been messed up the last couple of days. Guess a poor ######'s brain couldn't handle such an overload. Anyway.. Not at all sure what to do now. Haven't though about her in this way until last weekend, mainly because she's been taken for as long as I've known her. Haven't had much contact with her either, but during the last couple of days we've talked a bit more and sent a few text messages and we're connecting really well so far.

It's in times like these I really wish I could read people's minds. Since I don't know her all that well, I have no idea how to interpret things she says and does. Is she feeling a similar attraction for me, or does she behave that way with all her friends? I dunno.. She's also talking about getting together with the other guy again, but sometimes I get the feeling she doesn't really mean it. Wishful thinking, probably..

Oh well. I guess it will all be clear by the end of the weekend. Got my birthdayparty on Saturday, she's coming, and I am completely incapable of keeping my mouth shut about things like this once I get hammered. Here's hoping I don't end up misjudging the signs and doing something that results in me being beat up by a girl.

In other news: Drove my ex and her two best friends (including the hot enigma mentioned above) to a nearby mall today and followed them around for a few hours. Came to realize that girls in clothing stores are lethal. They all run around like decapitated chickens, mad like zombies with a hunger for expensive fashion. And what's with the clothing stores? Why do they have to force so many clothes into such confined spaces. Not only does it turn into a gas chamber when everybody (for some reason) have to spray themselves with 20 liters of perfume, they also have to turn the heat way up in there. And you better hope you never happen to stand between a group of crazed chicks and a piece of hot clothing. It's like a stampede, and there's nowhere to escape!

Don't even get me started on make-up.

What guys need to get ready for going somewhere: Deodorant, a toothbrush, toothpaste, a comb and maybe some manly perfume.

What girls need to get ready: All of the above (hairbrush instead of comb), as well as dozens of cosmetic products. Heck, the shelves with lipgloss, mascara, et al take up a quarter of the space in several of the clothing stores. I got dizzy just looking at it all. Insane.

The irony is, of course, that if most girls claim they "can't live without make-up", while most guys say they think girls look just as good, if not better, without any make-up on. Go figure.